Satan's Thorn

So Satan decided to stick his big fat thorn in my head today. He's found an "in" that he's used before. However, this time will be different. I will not listen to his crappy advice and I will not lower my standards or myself for him.

He's been telling me I'm not worthy. I'm not worthy of having godly men in my life as friends. I won't ever be worthy of having a godly man to love me whole-heartedly. That I'm worthless and I am just here to be used by people. That I shouldn't expect to ever find someone to love me for who I am.

IT IS CRAP!! IT IS ALL LIES AND I WILL NOT BELIEVE IT!! I WILL NOT LET YOU WIN SATAN!! YOU ARE A JERK AND MANY OTHER EXPLICATIVES AND I WILL NOT LET YOU WIN!! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!

OK...now with that being said...let's move on...
I got to spend some time with my mom and Aunt Barb tonight after church and it was great. I got to read a diary that Laur had written back in grade school and it made me laugh. I also got to see a video from our New Year's adventure with the Sullivan's. It made me smile because I know that even though we had a ton of fun skiing that weekend, we were also able to serve God and the manager of the hotel by folding a ton of towels.

Tomorrow is my interview at Northwestern Hospital. I am excited but not really nervous and I feel I should be. But I know that it is in God's hands and that if he wants me there that's where I'll be. His plan for me is much better than the one I have for me :)

For those of you who read this, know that I love you and that I thank God for blessing my life with you!!

May God protect your mind from the evil one. Don't let him have an "in" with you!!