1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

So it's been a while...a lot has happened since I last wrote....and then again nothing has happened since I last wrote...hmmm...interesting...

These past few weeks have been busy busy busy....between work, and getting camp stuff together and trying to have a social life...it's been a little hectic. For the past weeks I've been thinking about a lot of different things. One being where am I going in my life? Where is my career going? And to both of those questions I have no idea. I had a sudden urge to go back to school. And not just to get my Master's (which is something I will do). I have been looking into different programs and nothing seems to catch my eye...except for one thing...Nursing...Because I already have my bachelor's degree, I would be able to get into an accelerated BSN program. However, this means finding a school that offers it and also not working for 16 months. That's a long time to be out of work...for me...It also means moving 3.5 hrs south and being in a small town where I know no one.

After careful consideration and after going to church on Sunday, I realized that right now I just need to stay where I'm at. At least for a little while longer. As much as I gripe and groan, I do love what I do...I just don't like being there all the time. Church on Sunday was really good. A lot of things were said that I needed to hear. I will highlight those points in a bit. After church we had a camp planning meeting. I love our meetings. As much as we may not get done, it's always good to be around people that just want to serve these high schoolers and serve God.

OK...onto the message highlights...and if you weren't able to be there, I highly recommend getting the service on tape/cd.
1. "God's will is more about who you are rather than what you do or where you go."
2. "God wants us to desire Him, more than just His answers for our life."
3. "Our role is not so much to 'find' God's will, but to follow God's voice."

These three little notes just spoke to me. I am constantly concerned about God's will in my life and how that all works. But if I desire Him and follow His voice and be the person that He created me to be, then I am doing God's will for my life.

Some other things on my heart...next week I will have my last counseling session. Not too sure how I feel about that but I think it will be good. Another thing...Laurie...I can't get her out of my head...which in turn means that I'm crying at least once a day just thinking about her and trying to deal with the fact that she's gone. I don't know why this summer is harder than last summer. Maybe it's because I wasn't dealing/coping with her death. I was just skating right through and ignoring and numbing the pain. And this summer, I've learned to deal and cope and feel the pain instead of running from it.

I will be gone for the weekend...Annual trip to the Dells with some friends and I'm uber excited!! I hope you all are doing well and I'll write when I get back...