There's nothing I like more than waking up in my nice warm bed and feeling the cold air around me. I am one of the few people out there that love winter. I love the snow especially when I have to use my 4-wheel drive. I love how peaceful and beautiful the world is at night after a snow fall. I love snuggling deep into my flannel sheets and blankets and just hiding away.

For as much as I love winter and the holidays, I'm not really ready to deal with it all. I received an email from a friend last week asking how I was doing and her telling me that she knew it would be hard for me this year without having my little Laur around. It was at that point that I cried for a minute and realized that this Christmas would be different. This Christmas will be harder. This Christmas will not be the same as last year.

Counseling is going...well it's going... I realized that I have a lot more issues than I thought and that I'm dealing with a lot more than just Laurie's death. In fact the last few weeks has been about me and my life and choices that I've been making. I have a lot of "me" issues to deal with and a lot of stuff that I need to change in my life. It's just making those changes that is sometimes the hard part.

Last week was a good week. I was able to hang out with friends until the wee hours of the morning and it was just good to be surrounded by laughter and good conversations. I started off this week by goin out bowling and coming home and having a late night conversation with Kim. I love that girl soooo much and I love when we can just talk and talk and talk even though she has a paper to do and needs to get some type of sleep.

Well I think that's all for now. I'm sorry it's been a month... I hope all is well and that you are enjoying this holiday season that has jumped upon us!