Two weeks notice

Well I did it! I gave my 2 weeks notice on Friday. As of August 5,2005 I will no longer be working at NMH. On August 15 I will be starting at Condell in Libertyville. Of the 3 people I've told at work, all of them are upset and sad to see me go. I've been complimented a lot about how I will be a huge asset to whoever I work for and that I added something to the lab. It makes me kind of sad to go especially when I just started to settle into a routine but I think this change will be good. And if it's not then I can always go back to NMH.

Well I just wanted to do a quick update. I have a ton of things to do today so I best be gettin ready to do those things.

A better day

Yesterday (Thurs) I got to hang out with Aunt Barb. We had some camp things to discuss but mostly we just talked and were able to catch up. I'm so blessed to have Aunt Barb in my life. I can't imagine the pain that she's dealing with. But what I do know is that after hanging out with her I wasn't as mad at Laurie anymore. I know that the grief process takes time really I do. I know there are healthy ways of dealing and not so great ways to deal. I'm still trying to find that happy medium somewhere in between. I, like most everybody, have my good days and my sad ones but lately it just feels like the sad days keep coming. I'm trying to turn things around and to start attending chuch "online" but so far since switching to PMs I haven't had the chance yet. Maybe tomorrow.

Wednesday I got an email from one of my professors saying that she had received a phone call from the HR person at Condell and that things seemed to be on the very positive side and that I should expect an offer within the next few days. Yesterday after work I had a voicemail from the HR person asking me to call her because she had some very exciting things to discuss. I bring this up because I'm going to need some prayer. There are some factors to consider and I have some questions I need to have answered. I need to have a very clear response from God about this.

Last night was very stressful at work. Things just didn't want to go right. I finally got one of the machines up at probably 11pm. That was after working on the stupid thing for 7 hrs and having someone else work on it while I was on break. The second machine was still not up when I left. It was on it's way there though.

Well I know this has been a random posting but I just felt like writin a bit. I hope all is well...

Late night habits

So I have switched to PMs. Which means I work from 3pm-11:30pm. I don't get home until 12:25am and then I can't fall asleep until usually about 3am. I've been watching a lot of movies and working on camp stuff and finally responding to emails. My days seem to go by quickly which I don't like so much. I'm trying to break the habit of waking up at 10:30am because it really shortens the day.

What else has been going on? My grandma was at a rehab center for a few days and now she's back in the hospital. She will be going to a different nursing home/rehab place soon. My mom and aunt checked it out and it seems pretty nice from what my mom told me.

I have been working on a lot of stuff for camp which I love! Even though at times I feel overwhelmed I know that it's all for God and that He will provide the strength and guidance that I need.

As the days go by I get more angry with Laurie. I don't understand and I know that I never will but it just sucks. I don't know why she just gave up. It just really makes me mad that she did this. I think of her on my way to work usually and then I usually start crying. It just still astounds me that she did this. I guess I'm still in a state of shock and I'm not really sure when I'll come out of it.

Well I suppose I should try to get some sleep.

Thank You

I cannot thank everyone enough for your thoughts and prayers these past few days! It is in the midst of something like this when I wonder how can anyone not believe that there is a God? My grandma was in ICU from early Saturday morning until yesterday afternoon. Yesterday she was moved to a regular room (next door to where my grandpa was a week earlier:) ) Today my mom brought my grandpa over to see her and as they were walking around the corner out pops my grandma and 2 physical therapists from her room. They already have her walking!! How crazy is that? The surgeon is amazed at how well she's doing. I'm in awe of God. And even though I don't feel completely connected with God right now I still know that in the midst of this, in the midst of everything going on in my life He is there right beside me. Guiding me, protecting me and giving me strength.

Please continue to pray for my grandma's recovery. Please pray for strength, patience, and tender hearts for my mom and my aunt, who have been switching off staying over night with my grandpa. I love my family so much and I don't know what I would do without them. I am so proud of my mom and dad for just doing what needs to be done without much complaining.

On another random note, please pray for me. I'm feeling a lot of things right now and not feeling focused on anything. I have tons of stuff to do and yet I'm getting nothing done. I feel lost and not really sure where I want my life to go and I'm pondering other careers which means more school. Scary considering the fact that I just got out and just got my diploma today...

Please Pray

Hey All,

I need to ask for some serious prayer once again. Last night my grandma (Nani) had an Abdominal Aortic Anyeursm (a triple A). She had to have emergency surgery which lasted about 3.5 hrs. The surgeon said that recovery will be a very long road. About a week in ICU, a week to 10 days in a regular room and then probably some time in a nursing home facility.

Pray for my grandpa. He's really lost without her.

Pray for my mom and aunts that they would be strong and be able to make clear decisions.

And mostly pray for my grandma that she would stay the stubborn woman that she is and fight! And recover quickly.

And pray for sleep for my entire family. I've been up since 5:15am yesterday and only took a quick nap or two last night. My mom isn't planning on going to bed but she needs to. My dad as well.

I know God will get us through this. It's just going to take some time and trust and patience.

An Update on Life...

OK....First and foremost I would like to thank everyone who has been praying for me!! The interview went well and I have to go back and do a "Shadowing Interview". I'm still not 100% sure if this is where God wants me but I'm just going to keep waiting patiently.

Second on the list, I would like to Congratulate Chris,Christa, and Hayden and the entire Boncimino/Kovacevich/Templeman family on their newest addition Reece!!

Third on my mind, I had an idea for some posts that I would like to do. For the next few weeks or however long it takes me I would like to write about each person in my immediate family. There's 14 of us plus me (who I won't be writing about). So it may take a while but it's something that I'd like to do.

Fourth note, TC 2005 programming and planning is well underway!! I have taken on some responsibilites which are both challenging and super fun!! I can't wait for camp this year!! If anyone is interested in counseling the week of Teen Camp (Aug 6th-13th) please let me know. Or if anyone is interested in just helping out let me know!! We could sure use it!!

And lastly, this weekend is going to be crazy busy with lots of random and fun things happening. However, tomorrow marks the 8 year anniversary of Aunt Lin's death as well as the 4 month mark of Laurie being gone. What a stinky day!! However, I will be spending it with Mandy and maybe Heidi so that should be good times!!