"I am Nothing" by Shawn McDonald

I am nothing without you
Only a fly upon the wall
Listening in, hoping to find something about you
That will keep me from this fall
Sometimes I catch a glimpse
& my heart begins to beat
Day by day youre waking me
You put the wind beneath my feet

I long for the water that brings life to me
I long for the truth that sets man free

I am nothing with out you
Only the dirt beneath your nail
My is heart is bruised and broken
& my soul is very frail
Please give me a reason
A name to a nameless man
No longer this broken treason
Only on you I will to stand

I long for the water that brings life to me
I long for the truth that sets man free

Please mend my broken wings
Take the scales from my eyes
Without you I am nothing
I cannot survive

I long for the water that brings life to me
I long for the truth that sets man free

This is a song that I've been listening to that is just speaking to me lately. I went to church this morning and just couldn't help the tears that came to my eyes. I was actually happy to be at church and in God's presence. I was happy to be worshipping Him and I was happy to be getting fed.

After church we had a TC meeting which was very productive and then I got to go shopping with Mom. After dinner I went to Caribou on a mission to study. I studied for about 2 hrs and then got frustrated and left. I just feel so lost in my studying. I know I have no one to blame but myself if I don't pass my test, but at the same time I know I can do this!

I went to Vicki's for a while and just got to hang out and talk with her. I just love that we are so close now. I just wish that I wouldn't have been so dumb my last year of high school and I wish I would have gotten to be better friends with her sooner. I love that I can just call her up and say "I need Vicki-Steph time" and she says c'mon over...and we sit and talk for hours. I love that I can share my whole heart and she just listens to me. I don't know what I'd do without her in my life. I thank God for the friends He has brought into my life. They are all so unique and bring such a joy to my life that I can't really explain.

Hope things are going well...May you be embraced by God's love this week!

Fun Weekend

This weekend I had the pleasure of attending a reception for one of my friends from college. Amanda and Rob had their reception out in Rock Island yesterday. This of course meant that I got to see some of my friends from school. Such a great mini-class reunion!! Pictured above is Kayla, Me, Betty and Courtney (Money). Somehow the bride, Amanda, did not get in the picture. After the reception, Betty, Money, Andy and I went out to an establishment by the name of the Thirsty Beaver. We had fun playing foosball, basketball, darts and I had an extreme amount of fun dancing!! It was good to be with the girls and just have fun and dance under the pretty lights. For a while I was dancing without shoes on and I believe at one point I just was staring at the lights. I don't know if it was the music or the lights or maybe both, but I know that I was truly happy. Nothing could have wiped the smile off my face. Except for the walk back to the hotel we were staying at because I still didn't have shoes on. All in all we had a great time just hanging out and swimming and having good conversation. It was a good, fun, and safe weekend!

If I could ask for one thing for this week...please pray for strength for me this week. I will be working 12 hour shifts probably all week long. And as we all know, I rarely get out of work on time as is. So it's going to be a long week and I'm probably going to be pretty crabby. Please don't take offense if I'm snappy. I hope you all have a great week!!