Returning to a State of Normal

Happy Birthday Libby!!!! Hope you have a great day!!!

Today was a good day...so far. I got up at the butt crack of dawn to get my bezel replaced at the dealer. After I was planning on taking a nap but that didn't so much happen. I got ready and headed over to Circuit City to pick out a new stereo. The Pioneers that they had just weren't the same as mine. I ended up getting a little older version, but a step up from the one I had. On my drive home, with some Train turned up, I felt that I was returning to a normal state of mind. Now it feels like my baby is complete once again. I'm super excited to spend some time with Kim and to spend some time alone in my car. My baby will turn 100,000 miles probably by the time I get to Michigan tomorrow. That's a milestone that I'm not too excited about...

Yesterday was hard. I went to the lake with Aunt Barb, Pete and Kristin. Being with them where Laur spent her last moments was surreal. It just doesn't seem like she's gone. Today the memories just keep flooding back and won't stop. Remembering the panic I felt. Conversations I had. It was about this time last year when I started to head home in a panic. Only to be stuck in my car for I think about 4 hours or more.

I'm glad to get away from the area and just away from everything here. Even if it's only for a little bit. My counselor is a little concerned about everything that has happened this week and I don't think that it helped that I cancelled my appointment for today. But I felt I needed to get things done and organized at the expense of not dealing so much with my feelings. They'll still be there next week right?