Alone Time

Saturday afternoon I drove up to Grand Rapids to see Kim and hang out. I got a little lost but found my way eventually. I love Kim. I can't believe that I almost missed the chance to get to know this girl just because I was afraid of making bonds and then breaking them. I love that she accepts me and loves me for who I am. I love that we can watch Harold and Kumar everytime I go up. I love being able to go to Mars Hill and hear Rob Bell speak.

On the way home I had a few good conversations. One was quite confrontational and hard, but in the end all will be well. I just need time to heal and forgive and allow that person to regain my trust. Another was with God. And yet another with a good friend. My conversation with God was a little weird. Basically it was me telling me what God saw was going on in my life. God wants me to be alone right now. He wants me all to Himself. He wants to teach me and grow me up. He wants me to be solely focused on Him. The hard part is that I don't want what God wants for me. Looking back on the past few years, I realized that He's been trying to get me alone for quite some time but it was me who has always resisted. It is me who has repeatedly put guys up on a pedestal instead of having God on that pedestal.

As a side note...I have taken inventory of all of my cds. While I have over 200, not all of them were in the cd case that was stolen. There are 82 cds missing as of now. Some I have saved onto my laptop. If anyone knows of a way that I can transfer the files from my laptop to my home computer can you email me and let me know how? A lot of my mixes are saved to my windows media so ideally I can just burn them again. But I can't burn cds on my laptop, only on the house computer.

If you can still keep my grandpa in your prayers I would appreciate it.